Photo taken by Kaye Ford
I don’t want to know. I don’t want to know how ridiculous you think it is that a ‘skinny’ person has a problem with their size. I don’t want to hear about how I should ‘just put on weight.’ ‘Just eat more!’ I don’t want to know how there’s ‘nothing of me’. I don’t want to know about how the media loves thin people. I can see it for myself. I don’t want to hear about how I should eat more, or ‘have a burger.’ I don’t want to hear about how I’m one of those people. One of the annoying ones.
I’ve spoken about this before but I guess I just felt that it wasn’t enough. I needed an updated version.
I’ve always been small, I guess it’s just the way that I am. It never bothered me at all until I got a bit older and people started to make horrid comments – usually completely unnecessarily. I seem to make people uncomfortable to the point where they just have to say something because it’s completely ridiculous that I eat so much but stay the same size. How stupid it is that I’m unhappy with my body – thin people can’t be unhappy with their bodies, surely? It’s clearly very sad and I’m obviously unhealthy.
Photo taken by Kaye Ford
It’s not nice to constantly have to justify yourself. For people to watch you eat. To make sure you’re eating at all. To express their ‘concern’ because they must make me aware that they’re worried about my weight. I have never, ever, made a deliberate effort to be slim. I have never wanted to lose weight. I’d love to gain weight – another concept that people usually find utterly ridiculous. Well then, why are you so quick to judge the fact that I’m small?
So then people are like well why don’t you just gain weight then? Surely if I could then there wouldn’t be a need for any of this? It’s not like I haven’t tried. I have a fast metabolism and that’s just the way it is. I managed to get to a point of not really caring what people say anymore – I’ve heard it all before – but I just think it’s completely unnecessary. Just don’t do it.
I have been greeted by people with ‘you’re so tiny’ before they’ve even said hello. People have asked me if I struggle to find clothes that fit. People have asked me if I eat – like, at all. Not only is this completely inappropriate, but why can’t somebody just look the way that they do, because they do!?
This girl is skinny, she must starve herself!
I don’t want to hear it. I’m skinny because I’m skinny. I don’t need to know how you feel about it.