But am I a real blogger?

I seem to be stuck in a bit of a blogging rut. I love blogging, I love the people I’ve met because of it, I’m grateful for the friends, support, awards, opportunities I’ve had, but I can’t help but feel like I’m not a real blogger.

I don’t have the money for Gucci belts, new outfits every week, photoshoots for said new outfits every week, or to go brunching every weekend in pretty, pink cafes in London. I don’t have time to write a new post every few days (or the ideas, to be honest) or to have hundreds of draft posts saved within my Instagram app.

It probably all comes down to comparing myself with others, which I know I shouldn’t do, but it’s really, really hard.

It’s really hard when brands contact you wanting to work with you on a gifting basis because they have no budget available, but when you scroll through social media you see ‘paid partnership with said brand’ everywhere. Why can you pay other bloggers, but not me?

Obviously money isn’t why I started my blog – I blog because I love to write. I blog because I learnt that writing about mental health could help people. But why am I turned away from opportunities when others aren’t? My problem isn’t with the bloggers at all, I think they absolutely should be being paid for their work. My problem is with all the brands that want me to work for free. I can’t imagine walking into a hairdressers or a florist and asking them to cut my hair for free. For exposure, or as a gift. I don’t think these brands see blogging as work, as a revenue stream, as a business. Bloggers work hard for their opportunities and to produce the content for them.

I feel like people I know think I’m doing really well, and they always mention it when they see me. Like I’m going to be big one day. Like I must be loving it and making lots of money from advertising, sponsorship and affiliate programs. I’ve done one Instagram ad in the last two years and haven’t qualified for any others. I’m a member of multiple affiliate programs and haven’t made a penny from any of them and, it’s fair to say, I’ve given up on it.

I try hard to remind myself that I’m writing because I want to write, but the nature of social media means that I’m constantly reminded of the fact that I can’t get paid work whilst others can.

This post is in no way a dig at bloggers. I am so happy for bloggers that are paid for their hard work because that’s the way it should be. I’m just saying that it’s a shame I haven’t been able to work with many brands because they want me to do it for free. I’ve started saying no and, as a result, haven’t worked with a brand since November. Maybe one day soon things will change, but I just wish I could make more of my blog.

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5 Comments

  1. March 4, 2018 / 11:12 am

    Totally get where you’re coming from Hannah. It can be difficult sometimes when you can see people making a living off blogging! I guess we’ve just got to stick to our guns and hopefully sometime soon brands will start paying all bloggers. xx

    Lucy | http://www.lucy-cole.co.uk

  2. March 4, 2018 / 11:33 am

    It’s such a shame to hear you’ve given up on pushing for those paid sponsered posts as your blog is defiantly worth it! I think it’s great that you’ve stuck by what you believe in and your blog.

    Keep going, I totally agree with your friends you will make it big.

    Much love
    Holly

  3. misscosmeticblogger
    March 4, 2018 / 4:31 pm

    I 100% understand how you feel here, as I sometimes feel the same. I find affiliate programs only really work for those with thousands of followers – which is a shame. I’m sure you will end up receiving some amazing opportunities soon though! Your photography for one is amazing!

    Beth x
    MissCosmeticBlogger

  4. March 4, 2018 / 4:33 pm

    I really like your blog and I hope this setback doesn’t make you want to quit. It’s terrible how other people can affect the way we feel about ourselves and our work whilst they shouldn’t. Keep up the good work! I’m sure a great opportunity will come for you.

    -Jennifer x

  5. March 14, 2018 / 11:54 pm

    That all resonates very deeply with me. I’ve only just gotten my blog up and running with little content. However it’s comparing myself to others that really messes with me. Keep up the great work you are doing here!!

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