So earlier on this year I wrote a post about my experience with birth control and how I found coming off the pill. This is something that I feel really needs to be talked about because there’s such a lack of knowledge on what these little things actually do to us and unfortunately, I found out the hard way. The response to that post was amazing and it seemed to generate a lot of conversation so I decided to give a little update.
So after being off Cerazette for around three months I actually made the decision to go back onto it. My periods came back with a vengeance and I’m one of those lucky people that gets seriously heavy and painful periods (I wrote about that too, obviously) which causes a lot of anxiety for me.
So what happened when I went back on it?
Dizziness. Real bad dizziness! It was so hard to concentrate on anything and my head felt constantly fuzzy. Within a couple of days I returned to the grumpy, unloving and unaffectionate version of myself. My mood was low and I had this feeling of just generally being unwell. The dizziness was too much for me and caused a lot of anxiety. I waited for a week to see if it would pass but it didn’t, so I decided to come back off it. In, out, in, out, shake it all about. I do not recommend this at all it really messed my body up.
So what now?
As expected, within a couple of days of ditching the pill for the second time my period returned and, bloody hell. If you’ll pardon the pun. The pain was so severe that I ended up in tears at my desk – see period post – and had to leave work early to curl up with a hot water bottle and stay very still. I went to the doctors in the hopes of getting a different pill but he told me he wants to check my anaemia levels before letting me try anything else. Once I’ve had the blood test, I’m off to see the surgery’s ‘pill expert.’ For the meantime he gave me some strong painkillers which, believe it or not, I also haven’t enjoyed taking. After just one dose my head was spinning and my pupils huge – bearing in mind you have to take these things with anti-sickness tablets or something – so I gave up on them. Luckily the pain hasn’t been too bad over the last couple of days and I haven’t actually needed to take them (touch wood).
So now I don’t really know what I want to do. I seem to be a happier, more positive, nicer version of me when I’m not on any birth control, but my periods are dreadful and hey, I really don’t want to get pregnant. Back to square one.
I’ll let you know what I decide to do.